junwei;jensen.20.male.single.bunny.tnps.tms.tpjc.army.nus. 310587.gemini.studentleader.

wishes:more tees.new sony ericsson phone.new belt.adidas basketball shoes.fossil watch.white ipod.manutd jersey. new jeans.new bermudas.num singlet.e girl who loves me (:

like;soccer,basketball,cycling,gym,eating,drinking,sleeping,manutd, talk on phone,msn,companionship. dislike;alone,hypocrite,liars,no freedom,heartbroken.

huiling wantheng yingchun vicky peiyun adeline jasmine kianbeng marie lydia peijie shirley huimin

went for hols to tw and hk with dar.. had a great time there and there were moments that were sweet in my opinion la..but there i discovered something wrong with my health.

nvr mind abt all these..

why must quarrels happen..why cant ppl be contented with wad they have..why to others have to interfere in wad we do..why..i know my faults..but how to blame her when she dont think she's wrong even a bit..i dunno why sometimes i feel i'm her sandbag everytime things goes wrong in her family side..and i dunno wad i'm treated like also..

me i only know i love her alot..and wish alot of things i did i wish i nvr did..i also wan to give her e best give her wad she like but in e end a quarrel jus can spoil everything i've done..my love for her reached e stage that every step i have to take back means taking my life away..and i know if i ever lose her my world will definately collapse hard taking everything away..i'll lose my mind really..when she reads these she will come back with her own remarks too..more of bad than good..but i just wan to let her know how much i loved her and how much she meant to me..and hopefully she can stop mentioning abt ending things during quarrels..i still can tolerate her but i dunno if my health now allows me to tolerate as much as each quarrel like e one at e airport can make me go faint and pale..and i still got so many things and ppl to answer to..me refusing to see doc cos i wish e thing will go away by itself and not hai my family to spend more on me le..and i dun wan them worry..me check e internet but dunno mine is anemia related to my thalassemia minor ma..and knowing too much scares me too..

anyway i wan to let e whole world know how much i love chua huimin from e min i got together with her..I REALLY LOVED YOU!

and i hope i will be appreciated again and not cold shouldered like now..

and i'm closing down this blog le. due to inactivity..maybe soon i will close it..

and my headaches back..no matter how much of sleep also no use..and e ever aching shoulders..why must something happen to me when my life is just getting started..

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